I returned home a few weeks ago. I opened the door to my “art” room. Boxes of books in the centre. Paint stains on the white tiled floor. Canvases. Four enormous used canvases…my plan was to paint over them. I said, “Right.” No one was there. I just needed to hear it. I put all the books and the photos together. Looked for things and then realised I had already thrown them away. Grabbed the canvases – “I cant even afford the paint!”- dragged them downstairs (I am going to tr